I scratched my husband the other night. Not like an accidental or even a sexy kind of scratch, but a deep scratch that left skin under my nails and made him storm off. Why? Because he was trying to be funny and was trying to lick my face, but by doing so he had me pinned down in a way where all I could move was my fingers and I panicked. I had to get free, and for a moment nothing else mattered.
He likes to play rough and that usually involves pinning me down. It probably happens every day and most of the time I can deal with it, but one in a hundred times, I can’t.
And I know people would say it’s not my fault, because another guy destroyed my trust, but my husband muttered under his breath while I was sobbing my apologies, “I’m paying for what another guy did to you.” And every time he gets hurt, it IS because of me. Because I don’t like psychs, because I believe that I need to spiritually heal too. This is not something that happens often, but when it does, I go into the same spiral of guilt and self-loathing that I used to every time that guy did something to me. I’m damaged goods and he deserves more. I want it to be over, I want to be better, and I think I nearly am. But nearly is still nearly and I can’t hurt my husband anymore. I love him too much.
Happy October 3rd! May cute boys ask you what day it is!
Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this. TUMBLR RULE. When you see it, REBLOG IT.
The original post only has US helplines. I've added UK helplines underneath. It would be great if people could add numbers from everywhere in the world.
Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253
Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453
Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail email@example.com
Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111
Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: firstname.lastname@example.org
Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 email@example.com
b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: firstname.lastname@example.org
b-eat youthline (for under 25's with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)
Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: email@example.com
Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600
Drinkline: 0800 9178282
Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail firstname.lastname@example.org
Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight
India Self Harm Hotline: 00 08001006614
India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669
Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7
(Hong Kong: 2389-2222)
Costa Rica: 606-253-5439
Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908
Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292
New Zealand: 4-473-9739
New Guinea: 675-326-0011
South Africa: 0861-322-322
South Korea: 2-715-8600
Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800
Reblog > Go to your tumblr > Click in the house > And try to get out of the house.
I JUST SPENT 2 HOURS OF MY LIFE TRYING TO FIGURE THIS OUT. OMG. MOST DIFFICULT THING I’VE EVER DONE.
I CAN’T FUCKING DO IT FUCK
let me reblog this again
AND YES! I FINISHED IT! :D
I CAN’T FUCKING DO THIS SHIT FUCK
I’M NEARLY FINISHED BITCHES
this is fucking addictive aksldjaklsdj I CAN’T
I did it! omfg! 25 minutes!
ah i forgot i had this in my likes
gonna play it! why not
fuck, over an hour
protip: don’t drink while playing that
(Source: sou-inseguro, via geekongirl)
I GOT TAGGED BY MARILYN-DEAN TO DO A THING
Nickname: Well… none really. Some peopled called me Pluto, but that was ages ago.
Birthday: July 11th
Height: 5’ 4”
Time zone: Central Standard Time
What time and date it is there:…
I GOT TAGGED BY GEEKONGRIL TO DO A THING
Nickname: Aimes, Aimsey, Amelia, Rapunzel, Mimi (funnily enough, all longer than my actual name)
Birthday: April 27th
Time zone: Australian Eastern Standard Time (UTC +10:00h)
What time and date it is there: Monday, 15 September 2014, 9:42am
My Mug: Uhh is this meant to be like my mug shot or an actual mug of mine…? I’ll cover both bases :P
One of my more recent photos…
My mug… Yes it’s a soup mug; I drink a lot of tea.
I tag thatoddplace and rose-wanchors :)
THIS is how you mashup!!!
OH MY FUCKGIN IU JUST FLAOILED ALLO OVER THE PLAC E HOLY FUCK HO LD ON THE RE GOD
TONY STARK CREAMS HIS SUIT WHILE LISTENING TO THIS
thatoddplace THIS IS AWESOME.
I feel like my life is a TV show…
There is an abnormal number of complications and I’m like seriously can’t things just be quiet for a bit and the tiny Moffat elves writing my life are all like nooo we need the viewers let’s take your husband away again after not being home for two days!
One of my favourite shows:
One of my least favourite shows:
Do you see my problem
That would be Moffat.